Told you!

Am feeling better already. Still not my normal old self, but better than earlier in the week! I'm excited about my photoshoot next weekend and I'm excited about the other 3 I have in the next month as well. I'm going to do some advertising over the next couple of weeks and see if I can book some more. I think sunshine and photos and babies are just what I need at the moment.

Tomorrow will be a better day

Hi, my name's Kristin and I have trouble sticking to and finishing off things I start. I did keep taking daily photos for another few weeks after my last post but I kept forgetting to upload them. Then I started forgetting to take them. Then I decided I didn't really care because seriously, my life's not exciting enough to document anyway. I would've just ended up with 220 photos of Bindi and 145 of random crap. So once again I fail at the 365 project.

To be honest I've been stuck in a gigantic rut for a while now. Some things have happened this year and are still happening that have made me feel sad and anxious and flat. I haven't even picked up my camera for months... the thought of doing a photoshoot next weekend scares me to death. I feel like I've forgotten how to do it but I know that's silly. I hope it'll all be ok once I pick it up and turn it on again. I hope the spark comes back and I don't have to fake my way through it.

I really need to start looking after myself better, I mean mentally. I know the things I need to do to stop me from getting to this place and I know how hard it is to get out once I'm here but still, it keeps happening. I only need one spec of motivation and enjoyment to get me started and to start feeling better. The problem is, I just can't seem to find it anywhere, especially not in the places I usually leave it like inside my camera or a cupcake or a book. This time, it's nowhere to be found!

Man I'm such a drama queen. I bet tomorrow I'll feel better and look back at this and wish I never wrote it, and then probably delete it! Yes, that's it, tomorrow will be a better day. =)